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[grappler]

are you okay?? i'm... outside the maze. i can't get back in.

[opheliac]

if having ur brain scrambled like a pair of raptor eggs okay, then im doing swell.

why u want to go back in? want to play hero or u have a sudden rush of becoming a masochist?

[grappler]

definitely not okay.

for you and cait. i didn't mean to leave before i found you both... it was an accident. i left you.

[which she feels so fucking guilty about. for... past reasons.]

[opheliac]

vi, that place was splitting us up every 5mins. give or take. u wouldnt had found me OR the enforcer if u tried.

the point was every man for themselves in there and making it out alive. and i beat their lil game and thats what matters.

[grappler]

i don't want to be like that. i wanted to make sure you guys were okay.

[she hates it.]

it's the same shit just different times.

[opheliac]

i AM ok. as for the enforcer, i dont know. dont rly care. but i guess go ask her hows she doing.

[grappler]

[she expected that much. but she's still rolling in her own guilt.]

how are you so calm...?

[she's not okay At All. hence her leaving that fucking maze.]

[opheliac]

trained.
i know u dont THINK im a weapon but i am.
or maybe a super soldier has a better ring to it than a weapon.

[grappler]

at least calling yourself a soldier doesn't make it sound like you're calling yourself an item.

but i still don't like it.

[opheliac]

why? i just dont get it. whats wrong w it? u taught a lot of zaun kids the basic know hows when fighting.
so whats wrong w me being a soldier?

im not mad by the way. i know this might come off as me being pissy but im not. i just really want to understand.

[grappler]

because me and vander were supposed to be able to take care of you all. me when vander couldn't anymore. i taught you guys how to defend yourselves, but i also wanted you guys to have something better. that's why i wanted to fight so bad, for the Undercity to get something it deserves.

but it all went to hell. i never wanted a war for you guys. just a means to stay alive.

[opheliac]

( minutes passes as she reads this, no longer than five because she doesn't want to leave her sister hanging or think something happened to her while she's still out and about. )

vi. i think.... the fight between us and topside, it would had happened anyway. no matter if silco was around or if i shot my missile. our people were thirsty for blood way before then, u know? when we were kids. if it wasnt him or me, it would had been someone else on our side. peace stopped being an option a long time ago.

[grappler]

[now it's Vi's turn to be quiet for a while. she knows Jinx is right. even though she doesn't want it to be right, she knows she's right.]

all i wanted was for you to have something better. i know you might think it's dumb, but it's what i wanted.

but... at least while we're here, we don't have to deal with that shit. not really.

[opheliac]

it's not stupid. i think it's sweet.

( .... )

hey. can i tell u a secret? 2 actually.

[grappler]

[.....????]

yeah, go ahead.

[opheliac]

secret 1 first or secret 2?

[grappler]

surprise me.

[opheliac]

2 then.

i know back there i said hypothetically speaking if i had shimmer here and blahblah stuff....
its not actually hypothetical.

( oh my god, who would had guessed??????!?!??! oh noooooo... )

and when i get home, im... going to take it. so. i can feel like myself again. just thought u should know since we're on this starting over gig and we're being honest.

[grappler]

Jinx...

[she's quiet for a long time, and she runs her hands over her face. there's no way it'll ever make her happy, honestly. especially not after seeing what Shimmer has done to the Lanes.]

and it's just going to... help you. medicinally. right?

[opheliac]

yeah yeah! ill be able to run fast again. wont feel sick or claw at my skin.

ill be good as new, promise.

[grappler]

that's all i want, you know. for you to be okay.

shimmer is... i just don't understand it. i've seen it do so many bad things.

[opheliac]

ive heard it depends on the subjects? some can handle it, some cant.

the old versions werent... too great i think. i only delivered the stuff back then so.

[grappler]

they created monsters and addicts.

i just don't want that for you.

[opheliac]

im way too great to be an addict and im already a lethal monster. so we're good!

[grappler]

whatever you say. either way, i'm going to be keeping an eye on you.