[Yeah, Caitlyn's sitting again. She puts her face in her hands momentarily, before dragging them down to cover her mouth.
Vi losing her temper? Yeah, that doesn't surprise her. Especially if Silco was goading her. But still. She made a choice, doing what she did. And a very, very poor choice at that.
As Vi finally sits down, Caitlyn straightens, turning to look at the other woman again.]
[Caitlyn sighs. She could easily be mad at Vi, but what was the point? Vi was already going to beat herself up about it enough as it was, especially if Jinx really did get upset. And who was she kidding, Jinx was not going to be happy. Even if it was only a matter of time before this happened. She was just relieved Vi came back to her, safe and mostly sound.]
Do you feel better, now that you can say you killed him? [Vi wanted him dead for so long. Even if that isn't something that's necessarily permanent here, Vi still made it happen with her own hands. But judging by the look on Vi's face, Caitlyn's pretty sure she's realizing it wasn't as satisfying as she thought it would be.]
[he always does. he always fucking does. it's so annoying, and she hates being told to just step back and let it happen. she's not that sort of person.
and yet...]
No. I don't feel better.
[it borders on the edge of a snap, but she reels it back in right before her temper flares. none of this was Caitlyn's fault, so it doesn't really make any sense to take it out on her...]
[Caitlyn frowns, but doesn't flinch at Vi's snaps. She knows it's not directed at her. Vi is angry and hurting and Caitlyn knows she lashes out when she's like this, even if it's not intentional.]
I'm not surprised. I doubt it was fulfilling for him, either. Maybe now that the two of you have it out of your system, we can be done with the murder attempts.
[She still hates Silco just as much as Vi, but there was no point in trying to hurt each other in a place like this. Even if they died, they just came back, and most violence just ended up putting them on the Council's radar. It just wasn't worth it.]
[Caitlyn nods. She knows how hard it is for Vi to say these things. Especially because Caitlyn barely even knows who Mylo and Claggor even are, just getting bits and pieces about what Vi's family was like before her prison sentence.]
Continuing the cycle of violence never fixes things. If I wanted to, I could hate Jinx-- want her dead, even. But it's like you said. It doesn't change anything. It doesn't bring the dead back.
[It doesn't bring her mother back. Caitlyn knows all too well how easy it could be to let hate rule you, but she made a choice long ago not to let it.]
[there's a long silence, and finally Vi finds herself leaning her head on Caitlyn's shoulder. there's not really much else she could say here, but her vision swims with tears.
but she's going to blink them away. she's absolutely not going to cry.]
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[Yeah, Caitlyn's sitting again. She puts her face in her hands momentarily, before dragging them down to cover her mouth.
Vi losing her temper? Yeah, that doesn't surprise her. Especially if Silco was goading her. But still. She made a choice, doing what she did. And a very, very poor choice at that.
As Vi finally sits down, Caitlyn straightens, turning to look at the other woman again.]
You realize Jinx isn't going to handle this well?
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[she's still looking at the floor... that is, until she scrubs at her face with both hands.]
I wish I could say that something else made me do it. But... it was all me. He wouldn't stop talking about Vander.
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[Caitlyn sighs. She could easily be mad at Vi, but what was the point? Vi was already going to beat herself up about it enough as it was, especially if Jinx really did get upset. And who was she kidding, Jinx was not going to be happy. Even if it was only a matter of time before this happened. She was just relieved Vi came back to her, safe and mostly sound.]
Do you feel better, now that you can say you killed him? [Vi wanted him dead for so long. Even if that isn't something that's necessarily permanent here, Vi still made it happen with her own hands. But judging by the look on Vi's face, Caitlyn's pretty sure she's realizing it wasn't as satisfying as she thought it would be.]
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and yet...]
No. I don't feel better.
[it borders on the edge of a snap, but she reels it back in right before her temper flares. none of this was Caitlyn's fault, so it doesn't really make any sense to take it out on her...]
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I'm not surprised. I doubt it was fulfilling for him, either. Maybe now that the two of you have it out of your system, we can be done with the murder attempts.
[She still hates Silco just as much as Vi, but there was no point in trying to hurt each other in a place like this. Even if they died, they just came back, and most violence just ended up putting them on the Council's radar. It just wasn't worth it.]
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Yeah. It's kind of pointless here, isn't it? And it doesn't change anything. Vander, Mylo, and Claggor are still dead.
[the words hurt her, like a knife to the heart. but... it was true.]
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Continuing the cycle of violence never fixes things. If I wanted to, I could hate Jinx-- want her dead, even. But it's like you said. It doesn't change anything. It doesn't bring the dead back.
[It doesn't bring her mother back. Caitlyn knows all too well how easy it could be to let hate rule you, but she made a choice long ago not to let it.]
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but she's going to blink them away. she's absolutely not going to cry.]
It's not fair.
[that's all she says now, quiet. bone tired.]