[he always does. he always fucking does. it's so annoying, and she hates being told to just step back and let it happen. she's not that sort of person.
and yet...]
No. I don't feel better.
[it borders on the edge of a snap, but she reels it back in right before her temper flares. none of this was Caitlyn's fault, so it doesn't really make any sense to take it out on her...]
[Caitlyn frowns, but doesn't flinch at Vi's snaps. She knows it's not directed at her. Vi is angry and hurting and Caitlyn knows she lashes out when she's like this, even if it's not intentional.]
I'm not surprised. I doubt it was fulfilling for him, either. Maybe now that the two of you have it out of your system, we can be done with the murder attempts.
[She still hates Silco just as much as Vi, but there was no point in trying to hurt each other in a place like this. Even if they died, they just came back, and most violence just ended up putting them on the Council's radar. It just wasn't worth it.]
[Caitlyn nods. She knows how hard it is for Vi to say these things. Especially because Caitlyn barely even knows who Mylo and Claggor even are, just getting bits and pieces about what Vi's family was like before her prison sentence.]
Continuing the cycle of violence never fixes things. If I wanted to, I could hate Jinx-- want her dead, even. But it's like you said. It doesn't change anything. It doesn't bring the dead back.
[It doesn't bring her mother back. Caitlyn knows all too well how easy it could be to let hate rule you, but she made a choice long ago not to let it.]
[there's a long silence, and finally Vi finds herself leaning her head on Caitlyn's shoulder. there's not really much else she could say here, but her vision swims with tears.
but she's going to blink them away. she's absolutely not going to cry.]
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and yet...]
No. I don't feel better.
[it borders on the edge of a snap, but she reels it back in right before her temper flares. none of this was Caitlyn's fault, so it doesn't really make any sense to take it out on her...]
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I'm not surprised. I doubt it was fulfilling for him, either. Maybe now that the two of you have it out of your system, we can be done with the murder attempts.
[She still hates Silco just as much as Vi, but there was no point in trying to hurt each other in a place like this. Even if they died, they just came back, and most violence just ended up putting them on the Council's radar. It just wasn't worth it.]
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Yeah. It's kind of pointless here, isn't it? And it doesn't change anything. Vander, Mylo, and Claggor are still dead.
[the words hurt her, like a knife to the heart. but... it was true.]
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Continuing the cycle of violence never fixes things. If I wanted to, I could hate Jinx-- want her dead, even. But it's like you said. It doesn't change anything. It doesn't bring the dead back.
[It doesn't bring her mother back. Caitlyn knows all too well how easy it could be to let hate rule you, but she made a choice long ago not to let it.]
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but she's going to blink them away. she's absolutely not going to cry.]
It's not fair.
[that's all she says now, quiet. bone tired.]