No, Vi, just... ( she pauses, then exhales out an overdue worn out sigh that she'd been hanging onto. ) — it's just everything. And you can't really... punch feelings away. Believe me, I've tried shooting it. Doesn't work.
Don't get so down in the dumps, Big sister. We all got sucked in that happy-go-lucky realm.
( this is how she's been rendering the whole situation, and what's been helping her get by. even if it's not entirely true, but... sometimes denial is a river and it's helpful. )
— Whaddya expect from a hole underneath the city hall? That was just gonna sit there and not expand?
( her eyebrows knit together over her sister asking for silco's whereabouts. she may be beyond tipsy, but even in her drunk state -- that sounds a bit fishy. that's like her asking if caitlyn is in good health. for now, she shakes off her confusion -- thinking maybe there's an explanation for it. )
He's... at home. Probably. He doesn't usually worry 'less I'm gone for ages.
( the urge to either become horribly defensive or pry around for a possible secret motive, but she swallows down the desire. for now. )
Oh, come on, Big sis — this has to be the worst prank in the history of pranks you're pulling. You suddenly caring about Silco and his well-being?
[ just saying this out loud makes her scoff, as if there is a world where the three of them can live happily like a family. or for vi to see the good in shimmer and what silco was trying to accomplish was helping zaun, not hurt it. ]
Gotta hand it to you, Vi, you blabbering all of this with a straight face and not busting a blood vessel is impressive. But I'm not dumb, I'm a genius, and you're reeeaaallly insulting me.
[ the cynical expression melts steadily, and a thought brews within her skull. is her sister really serious about this claim? last month, everyone's minds were scrambled and tossed around like some master chef was preparing the most outstanding pancake and eggs the world has ever seen. and could it be possible some are still piecing information together, or slot a got jammed to slot c instead of b? cautiously, jinx asks slowly with her eyes fixating on the camera. ]
... Wanna remind me how that went down again?
[ because if her hypothesis is proven right, what would be the next move for her? tell her sister the truth or go along with the lie? jinx might be a lot of things, but the one thing she isn't and never will be is a liar. if vi believes the three of them are a family, it'll be her only one-way ticket for them to finally live in peace and harmony. but... that wouldn't be right and what if she comes out of it? shitshitshit. ]
[ her heart sputters behind her rib cage, and suddenly all of her words run dry. her sister really believes their story was the other way around. but now begs the question, does she tell vi the truth now? jinx sucks in her lips as she watches her sibling closely on the camera, hoping that by doing this will keep her from blaring out something she shouldn't. what the hell should she do? she is so beside herself on what's the right choice of action. ]
O-Oh...
[ the word slips out in quivers, now teething at her lip this time as she thinks this over carefully. ]
Have.... you spoke to Silco about all of this yet?
[ jinx is purposely focusing the conversation on silco's reaction, than voicing if everything is alright. because maybe if she had an idea how her father is treating the situation, she can follow suit somehow? if silco accepts vi as part of the family, then she will behave accordingly and reassure her sister things are squared away. but... will doing that backfire on her later? ]
[ jinx wrinkles her brow, and swallows down her frustration as inconspicuous as possible. of course silco would put on an indifferent demeanor about this whole ordeal. so much for monkey see, monkey do. she rolls her tongue behind her lips as she ponders carefully over her next move. maybe sticking to the subject of silco will buy her a little more time. ]
Tell me about it.
[ she says, with an unintentional grumble in her tone and with a hidden double meaning. honestly, he couldn't give her some kind of clue on how to handle this?! but maybe the justification for this, is because he's waiting to see how she will take the news, and decided on his own to monitor his daughter's actions.
the duo tends to have unique ways of communicating, and this method is no exception. if they can't convey with each other verbally face to face, they sometimes use a third party to deliver messages without the third person's awareness. so in this case, silco's detached behavior is essentially him standing with his hands behind his back, and questioning jinx how should they approach this. to which her response is, 'how in the heck should i know?!'. ]
I mean, I've mostly talked to him through the tablets. I haven't really seen him in person. Just a few glances.
[so she can't really tell much on body language or anything like that... and she's too oblivious to really notice that much anyway. just so long as he doesn't want to fistfight her, anyway.]
[ it's her weird roundabout to answer her question with another question. all in all though, jinx sighs in defeat of the whole situation and decides to say the most reachable thing she can muster up. ]
Listen, Sis, as long as you're not hurt or whatever, everything's okay.
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she always tries.]
I'm sorry.
[it's the only thing she feels like she can really say.]
I still can't... protect you.
[there's some memories in her head that give her reason to say that.]
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( this is how she's been rendering the whole situation, and what's been helping her get by. even if it's not entirely true, but... sometimes denial is a river and it's helpful. )
— Whaddya expect from a hole underneath the city hall? That was just gonna sit there and not expand?
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Where's Silco? Wouldn't he be worried about you being out and about?
[for once... the hate in her voice when she regards him isn't there. strange??]
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He's... at home. Probably. He doesn't usually worry 'less I'm gone for ages.
( the urge to either become horribly defensive or pry around for a possible secret motive, but she swallows down the desire. for now. )
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maybe that could be a cause for concern in of itself.]
Just make sure you get back to him in one piece, alright? You don't know what the hell's going on out here now that the city's...
[she waves her hand around!!]
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You know, getting back to him in one piece is the opposite effect for his heart give out, right?
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What d'you mean?
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[ just saying this out loud makes her scoff, as if there is a world where the three of them can live happily like a family. or for vi to see the good in shimmer and what silco was trying to accomplish was helping zaun, not hurt it. ]
Gotta hand it to you, Vi, you blabbering all of this with a straight face and not busting a blood vessel is impressive. But I'm not dumb, I'm a genius, and you're reeeaaallly insulting me.
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What do you mean?
[her head is starting to hurt a little bit... and she suddenly feels off.]
He took us in, didn't he?
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... Wanna remind me how that went down again?
[ because if her hypothesis is proven right, what would be the next move for her? tell her sister the truth or go along with the lie? jinx might be a lot of things, but the one thing she isn't and never will be is a liar. if vi believes the three of them are a family, it'll be her only one-way ticket for them to finally live in peace and harmony. but... that wouldn't be right and what if she comes out of it? shitshitshit. ]
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Vander hurt us. Broke apart our family... or tried to. Some of the kids we called brothers died in the process.
[she rubs a hand over her eyes.]
Silco picked us up. Took care of us.
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O-Oh...
[ the word slips out in quivers, now teething at her lip this time as she thinks this over carefully. ]
Have.... you spoke to Silco about all of this yet?
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Yeah, he acted a little weird too. Are you sure everything's okay?
[maybe something's not right after all. she's so confused...]
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[ jinx is purposely focusing the conversation on silco's reaction, than voicing if everything is alright. because maybe if she had an idea how her father is treating the situation, she can follow suit somehow? if silco accepts vi as part of the family, then she will behave accordingly and reassure her sister things are squared away. but... will doing that backfire on her later? ]
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[which isn't terribly odd to her. he's always kind of like that.]
He's hard to read sometimes.
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Tell me about it.
[ she says, with an unintentional grumble in her tone and with a hidden double meaning. honestly, he couldn't give her some kind of clue on how to handle this?! but maybe the justification for this, is because he's waiting to see how she will take the news, and decided on his own to monitor his daughter's actions.
the duo tends to have unique ways of communicating, and this method is no exception. if they can't convey with each other verbally face to face, they sometimes use a third party to deliver messages without the third person's awareness. so in this case, silco's detached behavior is essentially him standing with his hands behind his back, and questioning jinx how should they approach this. to which her response is, 'how in the heck should i know?!'. ]
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[so she can't really tell much on body language or anything like that... and she's too oblivious to really notice that much anyway. just so long as he doesn't want to fistfight her, anyway.]
Why? Do you think there's something wrong?
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[ it's her weird roundabout to answer her question with another question. all in all though, jinx sighs in defeat of the whole situation and decides to say the most reachable thing she can muster up. ]
Listen, Sis, as long as you're not hurt or whatever, everything's okay.