( don't break an ankle. she'll be sitting here and toying with the gemstone. she should find a better hiding place for the crystal, her home might not be a safe place anymore. )
but she finally gets to the caves, out of breath. she slumps over, hands on her knees as she looks at Jinx. she scans her for any sort of blood, sickness, anything like that...]
( at the question, she flutters her free hand apathetically as the crystal flicker each time she seems to brush her fingertips across its smooth surface. )
I've had better days.
( her sister answers bluntly, now pocketing the marble before it gets her into more trouble somehow. )
You haven't heard the big ka-blewie outside a few days ago, or were you too busy smooching?
( she isn't trying to be a little asshole, but she was half raised by her parents, her sister, silco, and his goons. so her snarky attitude could have come from either one of those people. and sometimes having a dry outlook on things helps her cope with the hard times. )
... It wasn't on purpose. ( if she could believe that. the council thinks otherwise. ) — The hexgem got away from me and things went cuckoo.
( jinx exhales out a tired sigh, matching her sister by leaning back on her hands. )
And I'm getting punished for it. ... They have full control of me right now. I can't leave this dump, I can't make my friends or work on 'em. None of my shimmer stuff works, and I can't even... think what I wanna think. I can't do what I wanna do, or look at what I wanna look at. If I try, I'll get super sick or get in a lotta pain.
They're stopping me from being me. How am I... supposed to act? What am I supposed to do?
( another breath leaves her lungs, but this time, it's more of an infuriating one than weary.)
— I've been making bombs since I was a kid! And they want to just stop? Building them makes me happy whether I use 'em or not.
( jinx exchange a quick glance at her big sister before throwing her arm up in the air. ) That's like saying," Hey, Vi, guess what? You love boxing, right? Whelp, sorry!! You can't do that anymore. Possibly never again! I don't care if it's somethin' you're passionate about, screw it! Find something else to fill the void."
( for a brief moment, there's a slight smile that spreads over her face. it's not because she enjoys seeing her sister angry, but more so, witnessing her this upset means she truly does care about her. and although vi can be somewhat of a goody-goody about certain things, at least even she thinks what the council are doing is immoral. unfortunately, though, the beam is short-lived and jinx sulks -- inching closer to her sister as she presses her head to her shoulder for comfort. )
Jerry said I need to rehabilitate. ( she scoffs bitterly over the word, as she nuzzles into her sibling. ) — But... in this way, it's...
( she trials off, her hand reaching to her sister's clenched fist -- to maybe soothe her rage just a little. )
I, uh. I meant what I wrote to you. If some razorfin or whatever beast attacks this place again...( a beat. ) Vi, I can't defend myself like this. I can't use my Shimmer to run away or jump away. I can't use any of my guns because it considers to be violent behavior, and this... stupid punishment is all about me not being violent.
[... it makes her angry. it makes her angry beyond everything else that Jinx is in this situation. that the Council would put her in this sort of position. because what good is rehabilitation when she's dead??
she's about to yell again when Jinx puts her hand on her shoulder. this is about her, not Vi. and she moves herself closer to wrap her arms around Jinx protectively.]
If anything happens, run to me as fast as you can. If anything happens, I'll find you. I'll drop everything and find you. I won't let you die here. I promise.
[yes, in that case it'd mean leaving Caitlyn behind if she had to.]
( listening to her words and her promise has her stomach twisting in an unusual way. it's a mix of nostalgia and affliction. it's a sickening reminder of all those broken promises, but it feels good to hear them again, too. and with the strong arm of her sister blanketing around her, and the familiar scent of her and her warmth... it's almost inevitable to fall back in.
silco wouldn't want her to trust vi so easily, but how can she not when this comfort feels so damn lovely? how can she tug away from something so intoxicating? her little sister curls further inward to her sibling, almost wanting to climb onto her lap despite she is way too old to do that sort of thing. )
... Okay. I-I'll run to you if I'm in trouble. No one else...
I even have Vander's gauntlets now. So I can protect you even better.
[that's how she was going to keep thinking about it. not as a way to remind her what had happened, but a way she could fight back when all the weird shit starts flying around again.]
( her face softens, and the overwhelming sensation of sentimentality is becoming too much to manage. mutely and carefully, she crawls onto her sister's lap to curl in somewhat of a fetal position -- head resting delicately on the other's chest. )
... He'd want you to have it and use it. He'd be mad if it's just lying around and rusting away.
[oof. this is all a lot. but the familiarity of her sister being here is so comforting right now -- as it always is. as she didn't know if she'd ever have again.]
I know. I'll use them, don't worry.
[even if she is still grappling with the memories associated with them.]
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( ... )
i jinx'd again.
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[she is RUNNING]
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but she finally gets to the caves, out of breath. she slumps over, hands on her knees as she looks at Jinx. she scans her for any sort of blood, sickness, anything like that...]
Are--Are you okay??
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I've had better days.
( her sister answers bluntly, now pocketing the marble before it gets her into more trouble somehow. )
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so she sits down next to her sister, putting both hands on the ground behind her.]
What happened?
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( she isn't trying to be a little asshole, but she was half raised by her parents, her sister, silco, and his goons. so her snarky attitude could have come from either one of those people. and sometimes having a dry outlook on things helps her cope with the hard times. )
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Yeah. I was... hoping that wasn't you.
[even if the light she'd seen was altogether too familiar.]
But it was.
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( jinx exhales out a tired sigh, matching her sister by leaning back on her hands. )
And I'm getting punished for it. ... They have full control of me right now. I can't leave this dump, I can't make my friends or work on 'em. None of my shimmer stuff works, and I can't even... think what I wanna think. I can't do what I wanna do, or look at what I wanna look at. If I try, I'll get super sick or get in a lotta pain.
They're stopping me from being me. How am I... supposed to act? What am I supposed to do?
( another breath leaves her lungs, but this time, it's more of an infuriating one than weary.)
— I've been making bombs since I was a kid! And they want to just stop? Building them makes me happy whether I use 'em or not.
( jinx exchange a quick glance at her big sister before throwing her arm up in the air. ) That's like saying," Hey, Vi, guess what? You love boxing, right? Whelp, sorry!! You can't do that anymore. Possibly never again! I don't care if it's somethin' you're passionate about, screw it! Find something else to fill the void."
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she listens, though. and the more she listens, the more she clenches her fists.]
That's so fucked up! That's not the way to do anything!!
[she's angry.]
Don't they know taking away shit you love just makes everything worse??
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Jerry said I need to rehabilitate. ( she scoffs bitterly over the word, as she nuzzles into her sibling. ) — But... in this way, it's...
( she trials off, her hand reaching to her sister's clenched fist -- to maybe soothe her rage just a little. )
I, uh. I meant what I wrote to you. If some razorfin or whatever beast attacks this place again...( a beat. ) Vi, I can't defend myself like this. I can't use my Shimmer to run away or jump away. I can't use any of my guns because it considers to be violent behavior, and this... stupid punishment is all about me not being violent.
I can't... do anything. And it's... a lil' scary.
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she's about to yell again when Jinx puts her hand on her shoulder. this is about her, not Vi. and she moves herself closer to wrap her arms around Jinx protectively.]
If anything happens, run to me as fast as you can. If anything happens, I'll find you. I'll drop everything and find you. I won't let you die here. I promise.
[yes, in that case it'd mean leaving Caitlyn behind if she had to.]
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silco wouldn't want her to trust vi so easily, but how can she not when this comfort feels so damn lovely? how can she tug away from something so intoxicating? her little sister curls further inward to her sibling, almost wanting to climb onto her lap despite she is way too old to do that sort of thing. )
... Okay. I-I'll run to you if I'm in trouble. No one else...
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[she swallows hard.]
I even have Vander's gauntlets now. So I can protect you even better.
[that's how she was going to keep thinking about it. not as a way to remind her what had happened, but a way she could fight back when all the weird shit starts flying around again.]
They'll all have to go through me.
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... He'd want you to have it and use it. He'd be mad if it's just lying around and rusting away.
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I know. I'll use them, don't worry.
[even if she is still grappling with the memories associated with them.]