[she was not expecting for Caitlyn to sob and fling herself into her arms like this, but she catches her anyway. she'll always catch her.
she has no idea what to say, what's caused it, and her anxiety spikes as she still doesn't notice anything about the files. the only thing that she cares about right now is Caitlyn crying.]
Are you okay?? Are you hurt? [she starts to sound a bit panicked now, because if something happened to her Caitlyn, she's going to lose her shit.] Did someone fuck around with you? Who were they?
[Sorry, Vi, words are hard when you're this upset. And Caitlyn is very upset. It wasn't like she hadn't imagined the horrors Vi had went through in Stillwater, but seeing it so obviously cruel, right in her face? To see how she was mocked and mishandled intentionally? Fuck Marcus, fuck the Warden, and fuck everyone that had any part in the cruel behaviors in that prison.
She pulls away a little, not quite out of Vi's arms, but away enough that she's able to wipe away some of the mess all over her face. Her eye is still blurry with moisture when she looks at Vi, lip quivering as she tries again to find her words and vaguely gestures to the mess of papers on the floor.]
These...files. T-They were here when I got home. Violet, they're...from Stillwater. About you. I-I knew they were cruel to you, but this--- what they describe, it's...inhuman.
[Vi doesn't comprehend it, at first. what files? Stillwater? it's almost as if it was a lifetime ago.
and then her stomach twists, and she remembers. being beaten and screaming Powder's name. being assumed she's on drugs because of the mentions of her. she'd never corrected them, because none of it was their fucking business.
that cell, that was so devoid of fresh air and light that she felt like she was going insane. being interrogated, laughing at them while they interrogated her, because she was so desperate for them to know that they didn't scare her. they did, but it wasn't stronger than her need to get back to Powder. all the abuse and neglect for seven years...
she only vaguely comes back to the present, but she hasn't noticed that she's stopped holding Caitlyn. that she's walking away from her, and picking up the files. that she's scrambling through the house looking for a lighter--
they've got to go. she doesn't know that her face is pale and her eyes wild in her desperation to get them out of their home. no. no. they can't exist. not here. not where Caitlyn can see them and read them until she drives herself insane too--]
[It's a bit startling, when Vi is pulling out of her embrace and scrambling away with the files in hand.]
Vi--? What are you--
[Caitlyn's on her feet in seconds, trailing after Vi, voice full of concern. Her own sorrow over the files is long out of mind, her priority shifting to Vi and only Vi.
It takes a minute of chasing after her that she manages to get a hold of her, putting both of her hands on Vi's shoulders and trying to stop her from moving long enough to keep her attention.]
Vi, look at me. Come back to me. Let me help.
[She has a feeling Vi wants the files gone, and she's fine with that, she just doesn't want Vi to do something rash and hurt herself in the process.]
[Vi's eyes are wide as Caitlyn takes her shoulders in her hands, eyes stinging as her hands start to shake. she looks at this person she loves so much, those blue eyes that have grounded her through many issues, here and at home.
and then they blur, because she doesn't deserve Caitlyn. in moments like these, she feels like she doesn't deserve her at all.]
You weren't... supposed to know. I don't want anyone to know--
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[she was not expecting for Caitlyn to sob and fling herself into her arms like this, but she catches her anyway. she'll always catch her.
she has no idea what to say, what's caused it, and her anxiety spikes as she still doesn't notice anything about the files. the only thing that she cares about right now is Caitlyn crying.]
Are you okay?? Are you hurt? [she starts to sound a bit panicked now, because if something happened to her Caitlyn, she's going to lose her shit.] Did someone fuck around with you? Who were they?
[she'll go fuck them up-]
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[Sorry, Vi, words are hard when you're this upset. And Caitlyn is very upset. It wasn't like she hadn't imagined the horrors Vi had went through in Stillwater, but seeing it so obviously cruel, right in her face? To see how she was mocked and mishandled intentionally? Fuck Marcus, fuck the Warden, and fuck everyone that had any part in the cruel behaviors in that prison.
She pulls away a little, not quite out of Vi's arms, but away enough that she's able to wipe away some of the mess all over her face. Her eye is still blurry with moisture when she looks at Vi, lip quivering as she tries again to find her words and vaguely gestures to the mess of papers on the floor.]
These...files. T-They were here when I got home. Violet, they're...from Stillwater. About you. I-I knew they were cruel to you, but this--- what they describe, it's...inhuman.
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and then her stomach twists, and she remembers. being beaten and screaming Powder's name. being assumed she's on drugs because of the mentions of her. she'd never corrected them, because none of it was their fucking business.
that cell, that was so devoid of fresh air and light that she felt like she was going insane. being interrogated, laughing at them while they interrogated her, because she was so desperate for them to know that they didn't scare her. they did, but it wasn't stronger than her need to get back to Powder. all the abuse and neglect for seven years...
she only vaguely comes back to the present, but she hasn't noticed that she's stopped holding Caitlyn. that she's walking away from her, and picking up the files. that she's scrambling through the house looking for a lighter--
they've got to go. she doesn't know that her face is pale and her eyes wild in her desperation to get them out of their home. no. no. they can't exist. not here. not where Caitlyn can see them and read them until she drives herself insane too--]
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Vi--? What are you--
[Caitlyn's on her feet in seconds, trailing after Vi, voice full of concern. Her own sorrow over the files is long out of mind, her priority shifting to Vi and only Vi.
It takes a minute of chasing after her that she manages to get a hold of her, putting both of her hands on Vi's shoulders and trying to stop her from moving long enough to keep her attention.]
Vi, look at me. Come back to me. Let me help.
[She has a feeling Vi wants the files gone, and she's fine with that, she just doesn't want Vi to do something rash and hurt herself in the process.]
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and then they blur, because she doesn't deserve Caitlyn. in moments like these, she feels like she doesn't deserve her at all.]
You weren't... supposed to know. I don't want anyone to know--
[she didn't even want to think about it anymore.]